Wednesday, November 08, 2006
had a long long talk with lady boss today. but today isnt much like usual.. it was a heart to heart one. and so i had a chance to ask her wad had been confusing me all along: "how would u know if it's God talking to you or its your own random thought?"
her answer was pretty immediate:"oh! you'll know it. you'll feel at peace. and when u flip to the bible.. u may be surprised that the first thing u read is exactly like that."
so now i know.
when i knew i din get into dentistry and medicine.. lady boss told me about the vision she saw that says:"better things will come for her".. and all along.. ive been asking God to show me the better thing He promised. all along.. ive asked Him to tell me the better course i shud choose and will go into.
until one particular night when i was bathing.. this came to me:"having been able to know Christ is the better thing. What else can be better? ive detoured for a year.. but i got to know my saviour." never in the past few months had i thot about it that way.. i always thot the better thing is a better course. praise the Lord.
so not knowing if it's my random thought again.. i kinda ignored it and went online. and i met yvette. i told her about it. and she directed me to a verse that says the exact same thing!! how great is Jesus!!! and for the first time.. i talked to yvette in a way ive never imagined myself to talk to her like. Jesus is good.
philippians 3:7-11But what things were gain to me, these I have counted loss for Christ. Yet indeed I also counted all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and counted them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in Him, not having my own righteousness, which is from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which is from God by faith; that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death, if, by any means, I may attain to the resurrection from the dead.and now i know.. this was God telling me so. its not any of my random thought. =)
*My love for Jesus is nothing compared to the love Jesus has for me*
says me`5:42 AM
Saturday, October 21, 2006
long wanted to post this.. but procastinated. haha.
the very day i posted my previous post.. i just felt the urge to visit new creation's website. i dun usually visit it.. so i guessed the Holy Spirit was talking to me again. haha. immediately after watching the video sermon on "Nuggests of God's grace in the feeding of the five thousand", i knew why i was there. God wants to reaffirm my beliefs. All that pastor prince preached in that particular sermon has something to do with what i said in the previous post. Praise the Lord. =)
i have actually three pages full of notes in front of me now.. but i shall just type out the important stuff =) im glad minling took comfort in one sentence i mentioned.. so tt makes me wanna blog again =)
the only miracle that is mentioned in all four gospels.. john, luke, matthew and mark- feeding the five thousand.
John 6:1-13
5 Then Jesus lifted up His eyes, and seeing a great multitude coming toward Him, He said to Philip, "Where shall we buy bread, that these may eat?"6 But this He said to test him, for He Himself knew what He would do.
learning point: long before you have a need, Jesus knows what He would do in your life. long before u face a trouble, Jesus knows what He would do.
7 Philip answered Him, "Two hundred denarii worth of bread is not sufficient for them, that every one of them may have a little."
8 One of His disciples, Andrew, Simon Peter’s brother, said to Him, 9 "There is a lad here who has five barley loaves and two small fish, but what are they among so many?"learning point:
*philip sees the limit in the resources. he is judging based on the limited funds and not looking at Jesus. how can we talk about 'little' in front of someone of infinite power and infinite grace!
*andrew sees the greatness of need.
*both of them are pictures of you and i; our faith is so little
*faith is just looking at Jesus. You cannot remain the same when u look at Him, His glory, power and grace cos He said:"When u see me in my grace and power, i see u in your faith" Although we dun see the results immediately, but the moment we look at Jesys, something has happen to your needs from its very ROOTS. Amen!
*example of marriage: many ppl postpone their marriage cos lack of funds. again they are looking at the limit in resources. just fix a date by faith and the supply will flow! (i believe tt i shud just go ahead with my applications without considering my tuition fees cos i believe God will supply me if He brings me to it. This sermon reaffirms by beliefs. praise the Lord)
*altho we dun have strong faith.. thank God that "God will supply ALL your needs not by the smallnest or poverty of your faith, but by the riches of His grace!!!"
10 Then Jesus said, "Make the people sit down." Now there was much grass in the place. So the men sat down, in number about five thousand. learning point:
*how to recieve God's supply: SIT DOWN!! wait on the Lord and dont get into the rat race of the world.
*example: its hard to take care of a child when he keeps running around
*"make the people sit down"- God will make u do something natural, then He will do the supernatural! e.g He makes the blind man 'go to the pool' ; He makes the lame man 'pick ur ur bed'.. before he did the supernatural!!
*God supplies all the time, but we need to find the switch.
11 And Jesus took the loaves, and when He had given thanks He distributed them to the disciples, and the disciples[a] to those sitting down; and likewise of the fish, as much as they wanted.
learning point:
*Thank God for small things, give thanks to the Father for the little and it will multiply like the loaves! (i am glad i thanked God for the choice of birmingham He left for me.. i believe everything will multiply)
*Thank God for what little u have and you will please God. When God is pleased, miracles happen.
*God uses the weak and the despised cos when it's been used, everyone knows it is God.
*"as much as they wanted"- people limits the supply but supply is always more than the need. Once the supply starts, it cannot stop.
*God's mathematics is not like the world. Although he broke the loaves, it mutliplied. Something that is divided should get smaller.. but in God's mathematics, its multiplication for division and addition for subtraction! amen!
*If u subtract something in ur life:money, time, energy for Jesus, it is added back to you! Whatever u divide for His glory is multiplied back to you 100 fold!
12 So when they were filled, He said to His disciples, "Gather up the fragments that remain, so that nothing is lost." 13 Therefore they gathered them up, and filled twelve baskets with the fragments of the five barley loaves which were left over by those who had eaten. 14 Then those men, when they had seen the sign that Jesus did, said, "This is truly the Prophet who is to come into the world."learning point:
*12 baskets full- 1 each for each disciple. the disciples were busy serving the multitude.
*Hence, take time to serve the Lord, He will not forget you.
Other learning points:
*if u dun want Jesus, He will not come and save you, even though He wants to save you. you got to invite Him to come into ur life! you got to invite Him to bless you! He is such a gentlemen, He will not force His blessings into ur life. God made us with a free choice and God will not violate your free choice.
*see the Jesus in the bible, not the Jesus of people's preaching and teaching that makes Him look small.
says me`6:46 AM
Saturday, October 14, 2006
everytime i wanna start on my applications.. this sense of loss will come over me. although i keep telling God that i will cast all my worries unto Him and rest in faith.. i still cant stop thinking about it. I dunno if thinking means i have not let go.. but i really want to place all my trust in Him.
just as i sumitted my UCAS a couple of days ago.. kathryn just told me yesterday that i shouldnt apply manchester leeds and glasgow cos they dun have dental school for international students in 2007-2008. Great! among four of my uk choices that i sumitted.. three of them are the above mentioned.
When i first see the message.. i really felt like giving up. Everything that i am doing to get me into dentistry seems to not going the right way. somewhere somehow the roads are cut off. i really dunno why am i so insistent. It really seems as if God is telling me this is the way i should not go. so i asked Him. i dunno if its the Holy Spirit talking to me.. cos i still dunno how to differentiate the Holy Spirit and my own random thoughts. but somehow.. my mind says:
why do you only see the three that are taken away from you? you are not honouring God by thinking like this. Concentrate on the only one left and thank God for it! He hasnt removed all your choices! One is all you need anyway and He left you with the one with scholarship.. praise God for it!
i believe what pastor prince said: "all things are working for your good. good or bad."
Actually i have to admit that im not a regular in church.. but everytime i go is because i just have that immense urge to be there. and everytime the service ends.. i know why i am there. cos so happenly.. pastor prince will be talking about issues troubling me.. and everytime i leave new creation.. i feel different. that's why im walking closer to God.
and today as i opened my mail from minling.. right at the bottom.. it wrote: "if God brings you to it.. He will bring you though it." and it immediately brought tears to my eyes.
so now that i have done my part.. i shall rest in faith. Cos only when i rest can God work.
pastor prince said something like this:" let go!! its just like a hose.. if u keep holding tight to it.. water cannot flow to you! the supply is always there but it cannot reach you cos u refuse to let go! its the same for His blessings.. the supply has never cease but u have to let go in order to recieve it."
this particular sermon on "live a let go life" is still available on new creation's website i think. everyone should listen to it! pastor prince is really good =)
says me`8:56 PM
